Funkfan5: I'm Back.
butterflykaren27: cool that was fast
Funkfan5: Yeah, it all depends on how long I have
to wait for the elevator.
butterflykaren27: must be nice to
have a ELEVATOR!!!
Funkfan5: Yeah, it's cool. But' when they're
broken down and there's only one or two of them
working, it can be a long wait.
butterflykaren27: poor baby...
Funkfan5: I'm 17 floors up, so taking the stairs is
definitely a last resort.
butterflykaren27: 17 down ain't bad
it is coming up that maybe it
would be a bitch
Funkfan5: Yeah, you're right. Whenever they have
a fire alarm and everyone needs to get out, it's a long
walk down the satirs but coming back up is definitely
butterflykaren27: yeah i would walk
down just for the excercise
Funkfan5: Yeah, there's an excercise room here
butterflykaren27: but hell the steps
would be enough
Funkfan5: I don't know. Can you picture The
Sandman walking up 17 flights of stairs? LOL
Yeah, but can you picture The Sandman walking up
17 flights of stairs? LOL
butterflykaren27: i can picture his
drunk ass Falling down 17
flights of stairs
Funkfan5: Yeah, and the funny part about it is that
he probably wouldn't get hurt! ROFLMAO
butterflykaren27: lol i guess you
saw my sandman comment on
the rotten list today
Funkfan5: Yeah, I don't remember all of it right
now, but I do remember reading it.
butterflykaren27: it was funny
Funkfan5: Is Axl Rotten similar to Sandman? As
far as getting drung or fucked up on pills?
butterflykaren27: he used to be
pretty bad not sure how he
is doing now...
Funkfan5: I remember how someone on The
Rottenlist posted that no one should be saying good
things about Axl Rotten, and you replied that you
agreed with him.
butterflykaren27: not i agreed with
the fact that that was the
kids first post and he was
kissing up axl's ass and he
doesn't deserve to be
kissed up to like that
Funkfan5: So is there something about Axl that
made you think, "he isn't woth having fans?"
butterflykaren27: no but i thought
it seemed like how i first
posted when i started on
the list because it was
started on AXL's site we
should kinda kiss up
Funkfan5: Oh, I see. I understand. But there's
something about me going to Boca Raton that I
should tell you.
Funkfan5: I may be going to Boca Raton in 3 or 4
weeks to a rehab center there. I am an alcholic.
I've been through rehab 3 times. But this place in
Boca is supposed to be one of the best.
butterflykaren27: well i was living in
a halfway house in delray
because surprise I am an
butterflykaren27: which center??
Funkfan5: I think it's called Alternative Treatments.
It is at www.drughelp.com
butterflykaren27: i probably know
some of the people that
work there... I have been
through 8 treatment centers
and finally ahve over a year
Funkfan5: Congratulations. I think that's great. It
makes me wonder though, when I see The
Sandman, how can he drink all that alcohol and still
do his job? It's a mystery to me.
butterflykaren27: i think alot of it
is he doesn't do his job
well... and PAul only puts up
with him because he is THE
SANDMAN and he brings
Funkfan5: So if Sandman had to go to a 40 hour a
week job, he probably couldn't. Is that what you
butterflykaren27: hell no it
Funkfan5: Well if I disappear from The Internet for
a couple of months, and everyone's wondering what
happened to me: I'm in rehab.
butterflykaren27: unlike most
addict and alcoholics that
have to change their lives to
function Sandman has found
away to live with out
changing but wait a few
years until he has a cirrios
of the liver and is near
death... Well keep in touch
I will email you my mailing
Funkfan5: Yes, Karen. Please email me an address
where I can write to you. I will most likely be in
rehab for 2 or 3 months, and it would really help me
out if I could keep in contact with you through
mailing regular letters.
butterflykaren27: yeah not a
problem i will email that in a
bit i gotta finish this paper i
am working on right now
then i will do that.
Funkfan5: OK. Keep doing what you're doing.
And send me that address so that I can write to you
when I'm in rehab and don't have access to a
butterflykaren27: i know how cool it
is to get mail so don't worry
if you write I will write
Funkfan5: I'd love to be able to send mail to you.
As long as I have your mailing address.
butterflykaren27: hold on what is
butterflykaren27: ok it is sent...
Funkfan5: Thank you!!
butterflykaren27: i gave you my po
box because it will stay the
same when i move
Funkfan5: And about The Sandman, don't you feel
that he is going to be sorry one day when his liver
doesn't work anymore?
butterflykaren27: yeah he is but
you sure can't tell him about
Funkfan5: I had an Uncle that died at 53 because
his liver din't work anymore.
butterflykaren27: yeah i had a
friend i met in florida that
died of cirrosis at age 34
Funkfan5: Damn! At age 34? That's only two
years older than me.
butterflykaren27: yeah he was
really bad had been drinking
steady like a gallon of vodka
a day from the age of 13
Funkfan5: Anyway, Elizabeth knows about my
drinking problem and I will try to write her from
Boca, but anyway tell her I think that she's cool and
I'd like to write to her too, if she has some kind of
P.O. Box or mailing address.
butterflykaren27: she has a po box
that was on her old site the
misslucky.com i am not sure
if it is still up or not but you
Funkfan5: She said she shut it down, because there
were too many starnge people sending her shit. I
don't blame her. I would have done the same thing.
But if there is an address I can write to her at, that
would be really cool.
butterflykaren27: well when i talk
to her i will ask her
Funkfan5: OK, anyway, I'm not going to Boca for
at least two or thtree weeks, so there's time to figure
butterflykaren27: ok coolio...
Funkfan5: And again. Congratulations for staying
clean for a whole year.
butterflykaren27: thanks... it isn't
easy but i have done it...
once you decide that you
HAVE to do it ... MY life
depended on it at the time
Heroin sucks and well it
gets easier when you have
nowhere left to go but up or
Funkfan5: That's how I feel now. There is no
choice. Go to rehab or die.
butterflykaren27: well at least you
can see that I have seen so
many people so far down
and only want to go farther
down... we can go up and get
Funkfan5: I've hit rock bottom.
butterflykaren27: i know that
feeling... what is stopping
you from going to treatment
Funkfan5: I've been through rehab 3 times. I just
alaways thought there was a way I could handle it
responsibly. Like The Sandman for example. I saw
him, an thought, there's a guy who drinks but still
does his job. Maybe I can do that too.
butterflykaren27: but well let me
tell you he ain't all that he
was married but his drinking
killed that thought, he has
been suspended from ECW
for drinking too much, i am
sure there are other
reasons, look at scott hall
#1 proof that you can't live
and drink if you are an
Funkfan5: Yeah, and as all these reasons made their
impact on me, I realized that I couldn't keep doing
the same thing and getting away with it.
butterflykaren27: yeah but at least
you realized it and unlike so
many other people that
learn in DEATH
Funkfan5: I know. I just wonder how The
Sandman can kepp doing it and I can't.
butterflykaren27: my guess is he
doesn't... I would bet he
doesn't He probably knows
what he is doing to himself...
Funkfan5: You would think so, but he seems so
happy. I just don't understand it.
butterflykaren27: but without his
wife and son in his life how
happy can he be?
Funkfan5: Did he lose his wife and son Tyler? I
didn't know that.
butterflykaren27: she left him
Funkfan5: Oh, I didn't know that. Well, maybe
that's the best thing for him. To realize that he has to
change his ways because he's losing all that is
precious to him.
butterflykaren27: yeppers that is
Funkfan5: Damn, I didn't know that.
butterflykaren27: yeah see shit
don't always look as good as
Funkfan5: And here I thought everything was going
great for him.
butterflykaren27: see you didn't
want to see it... hell i though
I was fine when i was
Funkfan5: And I know that it feels really sick to
have to go a day without it, once you're hooked on
butterflykaren27: yeppers but see
you never notice what is
always so OBVIOUS to
Funkfan5: You mean, the addict never realizes what
is so wrong?
butterflykaren27: right... the
elephant in your living room
idea... you can't see it but
everyone else can you just
dust around it but damn it is
HUGE and there and it
Funkfan5: And I'm beginning to see that. I know
what I'm doing with alcohol isn't normal. I've done
so many insane things...it makes me sick.
butterflykaren27: yeah i try not to
dwell on the past it is OVER
and you can't change it
butterflykaren27: i just looked at
the page about the
treatment center and I had
friends that went there and
it is a really good place...
Funkfan5: You can't change the past, but still, the
past is a bitch. I mean, the past is a monster, but
you can't escape it. You can't do anything about
waht you've already done.
butterflykaren27: but you can not
live in it... tomorrow is a new
day and you have full
control over what you do
Funkfan5: Did you have the website to the place
I'm going to?
butterflykaren27: yyou gave me the
Funkfan5: So you know it's the place in Boca
Raton. See, I don't even remember giving you the
butterflykaren27: yeppers and as i
said i have known people
that went there...
Funkfan5: And they said that place helped them,
butterflykaren27: yeah i know it did
they were living with me in
the halfway house
Funkfan5: That's a good thibg to know. Because I
will probably be living there for January and
butterflykaren27: that is when i
went down i left jan 7 and
was down there till i
wrecked my car
Funkfan5: So let me get one thing staright. You
don't think that because The Sandman can dring 20
beers a day, that means that I can?
butterflykaren27: lets put it this
way CAN YOU?
Funkfan5: I can't. But why can he do it, and not
feel any adverse consequences?
butterflykaren27: do you know for a
FACT he Doesn't face any
Funkfan5: NO, it's just that he seemed so happy
during his RF Shoot Interview.
butterflykaren27: but that was like
2 years ago
Funkfan5: So what you're saying is to not believe
everything I se on videotape, right?
butterflykaren27: well... lets see...
RVD has a shoot where he
says he doesn't do anytype
of illegal drugs!!!
Funkfan5: RVD is doing great! I'd be so happy if I
was anywhere near in my career to what RVD is
butterflykaren27: but he too is not
100% healthy... smoking can
be just as bad for you,...
Funkfan5: Yeah,, and I know because I have done
the 4:20 thing, and it made me very uncoordinated,
and I can't imagine how he does those moves when
he is high.
butterflykaren27: but he does... and
i know because i was there
he was at fault for breaking
his leg in JAnuary...
Funkfan5: Do you think that if RVD wasn't high on
marijuana, that he would have gotten hurt?
butterflykaren27: i was right there
that night about 3 feet away
when he broke his leg and
he was having trouble
standing up he was so high
BEFORE he broke his leg
Funkfan5: Damn, I never knew that. So basically
what it tells me is that I should go into rehab,
because he never knew what it was doing to him.
butterflykaren27: for some reason
we addicts are always the
last to realize there is
Funkfan5: Hey Karen, I just got your email, and
thanks for sending me your address, because when
I'm in rehab, I won't ever be able to talk to you on
butterflykaren27: well then keep in
touch... i am good at writing
so i will write you back
Funkfan5: I'm probably gonna go into rehab in 3 or
4 weeks, but whenever that time is, I'll be very
happy to be able to write you a letter or two.
butterflykaren27: ok coool... i gotta
go eat dinner be back soon
Funkfan5: OK, se ya!
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